today i'm a negative nancy

I've had a lot of random thoughts bouncing around in my head the past couple of days. I thought maybe I would get them out here, and maybe then I'll stop fixating on them.

*Saving Mr. Banks. I cannot stop thinking about that movie. So good.

*I sincerely hope that Kevin never becomes an alcoholic

*Let's be real. Kevin is the greatest husband ever.

*All I want to do is be done with school so I can deep clean and reorganize our apartment

*I am not thrilled that we have to move in June (more on that to come)

*How can I make this giant ball of panic in my chest go away?

*Infant Development paper. 10 pages of Infant Development paper. Gah.

*I wish I had already written my Infant Development paper.

*Crap. I'm way behind on my Internship hours. I am not excited to make up those puppies.

*I feel like if I'm not in class I am constantly doing internship hours or work hours. Which doesn't make sense because I do most of my work in class.

*I wish so much that I hadn't forked over 200$ on textbooks. I stopped reading them during week 2.

*I was done with this semester before it even started.

Sorry blog readers, that was a stream of fairly negative thought processes. Life is good in general, it really really is. I'm just incredibly excited to graduate.

Pi-Day Date

Are you incredibly sick of hearing about our date nights? Me neither. :) Date night is such a special night for our relationship because it happens every week without fail, and it’s just safe, fun time. It’s consecrated just to being with each other and making each other happy. Most of the other days are filled with stressful experiences, whether they be work, school, worry about the future, or other responsibilities. But date night is always there for us, and it is always awesome.

Kevin put himself in charge of date night this week. Friday was Pi Day, which got his mental juices flowing, plus he wanted to one-up my super awesome play-date from a couple of weeks ago. He decided to have Science Night (since Pi is used in science too people, not just math!). We did some incredibly awesome science experiments, while Kevin explained what was happening and I zoned out because I was too busy freaking out like a small child listened intently.

First, the classic baking soda and vinegar.

We didn’t get any pictures of the middle science experiments of racing balloons taped to a straw on some string (Bernouli’s principle), and popping balloon with fire (Kevin’s a pyro…)

Here we see a great example of diffusion:

For the record, the cornstarch and water experiment is WAY too much fun. We literally played with our “slime” for at least 45 minutes. My hands were wrinkly and dyed blue by the end. It was awesome.

And of course, since it was Pi Day, we had to make a pie! This is just a super basic peach pie recipe that Kevin found online and it ended up being super yummy (even with canned peaches!). There was science involved here too, of course. We turned our oven into a reactor which used heat to bring about a chemical reaction and cook the pie (or so Kevin tells me). Science is delicious!

Thanks for the incredible date night my adorable scientist!

Shameless Selfies

 

Kevin and I are apart for the majority of every day. From about 8 am til at least 4 pm we are separated. But we’ve been compensating for our lack of face-to-face time all right. We send each other approximately 15 selfies a day. Here’s how our life has been looking for the past week or so.

Why We Don't Compare

Kevin and I have a little phrase that we use when one of us (usually me) starts despairing that we don't do something as well as someone else. The non-complainer (usually Kevin), says,
"It's a good thing we don't compare then, huh?"
Yes. It is a good thing we don't compare. I work really hard at not comparing myself to others. It's a hard thing to do isn't it?

My amazing husband is taking 16 credits of chemical engineering, he is in his hardest semester ever of school and he works 20 hours a week. He is doing incredibly well at school and is staying so motivated. And then, he takes an hour out of his night to do and fold the laundry because I'm freaking out so bad about the papers I have to grade for work. It's easy for me to think to myself "this is ridiculous! I am doing so much less than Kevin, I should be the one folding the laundry. Therefore, I am...
Lazy...
Pathetic...
The worse homemaker ever...
And Kevin is...
Amazing...
Long-suffering...
So much better than I deserve..."

BUT, it's a good thing we don't compare huh?

Our apartment is very rarely clean. There are almost always dishes in the sink and dishwasher always seems to be full. I can barely get myself to vacuum once a week. There are clothes and shoes all over the floor in our room, and our second bedroom always looks like a tornado went through it, even though we deep clean it ALL THE TIME.

I get discouraged about this sometimes when I go to neighbor's apartments and see how CLEAN they are, compared to mine.

But then I remember that we don't compare. And I also remember that my neighbors are not full-time students who are also working 15 hours a week and doing 10 hours a week of an internship. Their best is different than mine.

I am doing my best. That is what I have to keep telling myself. I am doing my best, and this is my best right now. My best will be different in a month and a half when I graduate (!!!). My best will be better, comparatively to what it is now. And I'm so excited for that day.

I have big plans to deep clean and reorganize our apartment after graduation. I have dreams about vacuuming every day, and scrubbing the toilet weekly. But for right now, I am doing my best, and I don't compare myself to others.

Play Date

Last night I put myself in charge of date night and surprised Kevin with a “Play date.” It was such a blast. I love having date night with Kevin, even when we don’t do anything fancy, but sometimes it’s nice to do something totally out of the ordinary. We definitely tapped into our inner child last night.

For Dinner we had Mac & Cheese and grilled cheese sandwiches, which Kevin was very excited about. 

I made play dough earlier in the day, which we played with and made little sculptures. It was a blast. I used this play dough recipe and it turned out so great. It was super easy to make and to play with. :)

Throughout the whole evening we jammed out to Disney songs. It was awesome.

I said yes, again! :)

After we had our fill of play dough, we pulled out the finger paint that I had made earlier in the day using this recipe. If I’m being honest, it felt more like we were painting with pudding than with paint, but it was still a blast. 

We finished off our date night by watching Anastasia which Kevin had NEVER seen! He loved it, of course. We even did the sing-a-long after the movie was finished. It was honestly one of the most fun date nights we’ve had in a while, especially since it was at home and essentially free! Hooray for date night, and hooray for marriage!